We have taught and know commonly of our five senses which are smell, touch (feel), taste, hear and see. Even so, we also know that every each of us have one more special sense but have you ever wonder what that extra sense that you owned is. I always use this 6th sense of mine which I thought it was one of my five senses which is smell, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize the sense that I have been using is my 6th sense. Our 6th sense is actually an extra sense that we had unconsciously developed from one of our 5 sense strongly and channel it into something extraordinary… something that makes us think or feel that it’s supernatural or magic.
As I was playing this quiz in FB, the result showed this:
Clairessence is my 6th sense; a person who’s very in tune of scent, from perfumes to flower to toxic fumes. A person gifted with clairessence will often smell certain aromas even when the source cannot be found. Or you will associate certain people with certain scents. Eg; if you are easily annoyed by a certain someone, you may pick up an unpleasant odor when he/she is around. Now, this might be due to some stinky laundry, but often it’s something that’s intuitive and only you can experience. Some even say that a clairessence will smell roses when a person has died recovered from a bad illness. Hmm…
It is true though… For people who knows me, they know that I am able to detect certain smell and categories or pick up a similarity that can relate to what I had just smell. For example, when I was around 15 yrs old, I can detect what type of cigarette any person who smoked by smelling the smell of the cigarette’s smokes from the type of Dunhill, Salem, BnH, etc… even its categories from light, menthol to hot…
Another example was when I first worked as a bartender in a hotel, I am able to detect what type of beer or liquor a person drank by smell from his/her breath from beer type of Heneiken, Guiness (bottle or stout), Martini, Margarita, Shandy, Tequilla, JD, etc… (Seriously, I hate it! I feel like vomiting smelling it every day because of working)
Ever since I was little until now, I can still smell something that other people can’t detect… a person’s own unconsciously body odor. Most people can only detect based on the type of deodorant or perfume that their using or when they are sweating… but for me, this is the type of odor that is so refined that only I can smell it even when that person just took a shower, woke up from a night sleep, or sweat; the odor never change. We all know that every one of us have our own instinctive body odor but don’t really know how its smell likes unless we start sweating of didn’t take a bath. I’m quite thankful for having this sense because this type of sense actually help me detect what type of person he or she is in terms of dangerous to be with or feel comfortable to be with, whether he/she have a pleasant term of body odor or vise versa. It’s hard to explain but people who are close to me and knew what I like to do when being around them; they understand it very well…
So, in conclusion of my nonsense story, my 6th sense is clairessence. What is your 6th sense? Maybe you do know but didn’t realize it. If you wish to find out, play the quiz from my FB page and you might find out that it might be true, relating to your experiences.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Mix-up and trapped
Dear Blog,
Last night at work was undefined. I’ve arrived earlier than I should have because I need to go to Starbucks Times Square 1 to get my umbrella which I had left it there last Thursday. When I’ve arrived at my store, I thought of wanting to online for a while but it seems that my sister fiances’ laptop was unable to detect the connection. So, I went in to work earlier than I’m supposed to. There three middle shift partners left while waiting for the closing partners including me to come in and work. There’s Small who finishes at 6pm, Shahril’s at 8pm and Hanif’s at 10pm. So, I went sliding, wash the dishes and by the time the closing partners coming in which are Venu (MOD), Alif, Hafizsan, and Asyraf (a partner that I once met him in Kuching because he was there for RWMF); I was rearranging the pastry case as usual. Hanif told Small, Venu and Shahril that I bit him lastnight at Starbucks Times Square. Big deal! I bit Addie more than 10 times already. Venu was shocked of course because she didn’t know that I bite people. I told her that he was really asking for it. It took a while for me to rearrange the food, then Hanif came and stand beside me, asking why I’m so quite today. I just smile. Then, he laid his forehead on top of the pastry case, and I ask what’s wrong? He said softly that he was tired. Then he left because Small was calling him. I know he keep wanting to have conversation with me, even looked at me “without me realizing that he was looking”.
You might think that I’m exaggerating or something but it’s true. Then, Venu was trying to be the cupid in this scenario by match making the two of us. I noticed that both of them were whispering something when she kept pointing out that he likes me, terima jer la, hanif comel la. Then, I said, “I tak nak la. Kalau nak pilih baik saya ambil Shahril (was kidding) sebab Shahril manja, Shahril baik”… Then, Venu was backing Hanif up saying that Hanif sebenarnya manja. I replied, “Takde la, mana manja. Nakal teramat. Kalau Venu suka, Venu ambil la dia sebab Linda nak Shahril.” Then, Venu was fooling around with him and back to me again. The whole night it was about making the two of us together. Venu does realize that Hanif likes to usik me and she keeps pointing it out, “Hanif, awak suka sangat usik dia ek? Linda ni pun sama. Kenapa la you gigit dia. Marah girlfriend dia nanti.” Then Asyraf, Hafizsan and Hanif himself said, “Takde girlfriend pun. Dah putus lama dah!” When I heard that part, I sarcastically said, “Tahan ke kalau dia nak kat saya?” and I walked out of the backroom and do my work. They wanted to dig into our hearts to know whether I like him or he likes me. It seems that they knew his answer. I don’t know whether they are helping him to find out whether I like him also or wanting to know whether I’m flirting with him, or playing a fool out of me.
It was time for Shahril to clocked out and went back home. I acted sad and pouted my lips like a puppy wanting him to stay. Then, Shahril was playing around with me, saying that he has to go because tomorrow he is working at 10am. Then he want some kisses from me, I giggled and we hugged eachother in front of Hanif. Then, Hanif and Alif said, “ depan cctv korang peluk ek?” I told them we partners in Kuching always hug eachother, it’s normal and because of we really bond with eachother and really feel like a part of a family no matter hug a guy or a girl. Then, all the guys there are like kind of envy of Shahril and said I pamperd him the most, I saying him the most.
It was nearly time to closing the store, customers where no more coming in, Hanif went back already and Hafizsan was tilling out. In the bar was me, Venu, and Asyraf. Both of them acted really secretive and really want me to give them an answer. They keep teasing and pushing their words out saying that I actually really like him, right? Or saying that he is ok, and you are single, go ahead. He likes you it seems if he keeps usik, etc… I can’t even concentrate doing my closing, my face keep blushing, etc.
I was trying to end this conversation but I think my words came out wrongly. I stated my words something like this, “ Korang ni la. Kalau orang tu benar-benar suka, biarla dia sendiri yang beritahu kepada orang tu. Menyekat-nyekat orang ni bahaya tau…” Then, the two of them were confused and said, “Ayat dia ni pelik la… macam memberi harapan je.” I stopped and said it came out wrongly. OMG! I really was trapped right there then. Hafizsan heard our conversation and wanted Asyraf to reconfirmed it with him. He then said, “Takpe, nanti saya beritahu hanif supaya dia boleh cakap yang dia suka kt Linda.” Then, Asyraf told Venu, “Kalau Venu buat diaorang ni betul2 bercouple, saya nak Venu putuskan diaorang la la tu gak! I don’t want to see it. Effect kerja tau. Dulu ada juga couple keja kat sini, terhegeh2 buat keja, slow, etc” I just laugh and said to him, “Don’t worry. It won’t happen to me. Kerja tetap kerja. I know how to handle it.”
End of story… (FRIDAY, 28/11/08)
Last night at work was undefined. I’ve arrived earlier than I should have because I need to go to Starbucks Times Square 1 to get my umbrella which I had left it there last Thursday. When I’ve arrived at my store, I thought of wanting to online for a while but it seems that my sister fiances’ laptop was unable to detect the connection. So, I went in to work earlier than I’m supposed to. There three middle shift partners left while waiting for the closing partners including me to come in and work. There’s Small who finishes at 6pm, Shahril’s at 8pm and Hanif’s at 10pm. So, I went sliding, wash the dishes and by the time the closing partners coming in which are Venu (MOD), Alif, Hafizsan, and Asyraf (a partner that I once met him in Kuching because he was there for RWMF); I was rearranging the pastry case as usual. Hanif told Small, Venu and Shahril that I bit him lastnight at Starbucks Times Square. Big deal! I bit Addie more than 10 times already. Venu was shocked of course because she didn’t know that I bite people. I told her that he was really asking for it. It took a while for me to rearrange the food, then Hanif came and stand beside me, asking why I’m so quite today. I just smile. Then, he laid his forehead on top of the pastry case, and I ask what’s wrong? He said softly that he was tired. Then he left because Small was calling him. I know he keep wanting to have conversation with me, even looked at me “without me realizing that he was looking”.
You might think that I’m exaggerating or something but it’s true. Then, Venu was trying to be the cupid in this scenario by match making the two of us. I noticed that both of them were whispering something when she kept pointing out that he likes me, terima jer la, hanif comel la. Then, I said, “I tak nak la. Kalau nak pilih baik saya ambil Shahril (was kidding) sebab Shahril manja, Shahril baik”… Then, Venu was backing Hanif up saying that Hanif sebenarnya manja. I replied, “Takde la, mana manja. Nakal teramat. Kalau Venu suka, Venu ambil la dia sebab Linda nak Shahril.” Then, Venu was fooling around with him and back to me again. The whole night it was about making the two of us together. Venu does realize that Hanif likes to usik me and she keeps pointing it out, “Hanif, awak suka sangat usik dia ek? Linda ni pun sama. Kenapa la you gigit dia. Marah girlfriend dia nanti.” Then Asyraf, Hafizsan and Hanif himself said, “Takde girlfriend pun. Dah putus lama dah!” When I heard that part, I sarcastically said, “Tahan ke kalau dia nak kat saya?” and I walked out of the backroom and do my work. They wanted to dig into our hearts to know whether I like him or he likes me. It seems that they knew his answer. I don’t know whether they are helping him to find out whether I like him also or wanting to know whether I’m flirting with him, or playing a fool out of me.
It was time for Shahril to clocked out and went back home. I acted sad and pouted my lips like a puppy wanting him to stay. Then, Shahril was playing around with me, saying that he has to go because tomorrow he is working at 10am. Then he want some kisses from me, I giggled and we hugged eachother in front of Hanif. Then, Hanif and Alif said, “ depan cctv korang peluk ek?” I told them we partners in Kuching always hug eachother, it’s normal and because of we really bond with eachother and really feel like a part of a family no matter hug a guy or a girl. Then, all the guys there are like kind of envy of Shahril and said I pamperd him the most, I saying him the most.
It was nearly time to closing the store, customers where no more coming in, Hanif went back already and Hafizsan was tilling out. In the bar was me, Venu, and Asyraf. Both of them acted really secretive and really want me to give them an answer. They keep teasing and pushing their words out saying that I actually really like him, right? Or saying that he is ok, and you are single, go ahead. He likes you it seems if he keeps usik, etc… I can’t even concentrate doing my closing, my face keep blushing, etc.
I was trying to end this conversation but I think my words came out wrongly. I stated my words something like this, “ Korang ni la. Kalau orang tu benar-benar suka, biarla dia sendiri yang beritahu kepada orang tu. Menyekat-nyekat orang ni bahaya tau…” Then, the two of them were confused and said, “Ayat dia ni pelik la… macam memberi harapan je.” I stopped and said it came out wrongly. OMG! I really was trapped right there then. Hafizsan heard our conversation and wanted Asyraf to reconfirmed it with him. He then said, “Takpe, nanti saya beritahu hanif supaya dia boleh cakap yang dia suka kt Linda.” Then, Asyraf told Venu, “Kalau Venu buat diaorang ni betul2 bercouple, saya nak Venu putuskan diaorang la la tu gak! I don’t want to see it. Effect kerja tau. Dulu ada juga couple keja kat sini, terhegeh2 buat keja, slow, etc” I just laugh and said to him, “Don’t worry. It won’t happen to me. Kerja tetap kerja. I know how to handle it.”
End of story… (FRIDAY, 28/11/08)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Working in Starbucks Time Square 1
Dear blog,
My day today was awkwardly blissfully wonderful today. My morning was a bit bad because I got food poisoning from last night supper outside with my sister, her fiancé and his cousin. I showered around noon, went to Maybank around 3pm to cancel my ASB loan, and hang around at my store Starbucks Pavilion until 6pm (the rest of what I’m doing there no need to be so detail) while waiting to go work in Starbucks Time Square 1 at 7pm. It rained on my way going to Time Square but I managed to reached there 30 minutes earlier so I can dry myself up. They loan me, Hafizsan and one of our partner from pavilion that I haven’t met yet named Hanif for 4 hours due to having the store’s partner meeting with their district manager Ferry.
So, I’m the first one to arrive. At first the partners here thought I was a customer, and they weren’t very friendly, so I became quiet while working and opening my fund. Then, came in Hafizsan, later after that Hanif walks in. The three of us were left on the floor while the Time Squares’ partners went for their meeting. It was quite busy but the three of us manage to handle the floor smoothly. No pending at all, and at the same time we really have fun. Most of the time, these two boys have fun teasing me. As time goes by, me and Hanif gets to know each other. This boy is the most daring and mischief boy that I have ever met. He knows from where or from whom that I like to bite people, and really was asking for it. He keeps bragging about it for 2 hours plus, teasing… He really plays with me until I can’t even concentrate with the customers, sometimes teasing on how I talked to them. He is so mischief, like a little kid. When I give him that signature look that I always did with my partners in Kuching and with Khairul (my ex-store manager in Kuching Starbucks, The Spring), you want to know what he did? He looked back with the mischief look on his face like he really does want it. I felt my heart beats really fast and my blood rushing through my blood vessel like a train. There is something about him that I x know how to explain what I felt… perhaps blushing because I keep end up giggling and felt my face turn red, perhaps excited, challenged… perhaps. The worst part, I felt a bit naughty with him. He is totally different from Addie; in a way of being mischief. With Addie, it’s like fooling around, like sibling or close friend bickering with each other with no reason at all but at the same time no hard feelings, but with Hanif, there’s a sudden unsure sparks.
It’s been more than 2 hours; one of the Starbucks Time Squares’ partners, James the name who is a sweet hopeless romantic Malaysian Portuguese came in and helps the busy floor, so both I and James taking order at the same time being the food partner, while Hanif and Hafizsan making the drinks and expedite. After a while, I went to the expediter there, and initiate conversation of course, Hanif was beside me, and imitate what I had just said to the customer, and give his mischief smile. I turned and without any thought at all, I bite him on his left shoulder when I push him inside a bit at the verismo where the customers can’t see us. He was too shocked that he gulped when he wanted to scream in pain…wahahahahaha… He said it was so painful to Hafizsan and James and Hafizsan laugh and told him so because he keeps giving Hanif a warning that I might keluarkan my taring. Now, he became the second person in Starbucks Pavilion that caught my bite. It wasn’t that bad, just red with my teeth mark, unlike Addie’s. I bit Addie until his skin nearly tore; it was blue and bleeds a bit. His hand felt numb and still teasing everytime when he is near to me. He keeps looking at me and sometimes waiting for me to look back at him.
When the meeting was over and the rightful partners had finished their breaks, it was 20 minutes to 11pm, where the three of us were suppose to finish work. So, the two of them took their 10 minutes breaks, while I was tilling out. The male partners where disappointed because only James got the time to get to know me. I giggled when they said that because it is kind of nice being the center of attention. While I was tilling out, both of them went out for a smoke. When they came back, he acted naughty again. Hafizsan then all the sudden acted as if he kecil hati and said because of Hanif, I threw him out from my heart… I laugh so loud about the rest of what he was saying… he was pretending to be sad. We talked, goofing around while I was counting my money. Then both of them clocked out and didn’t wait for me. On their way out from the backroom, Hanif quickly pulled softly a bit part of my fringe. I startled because I was concentrating counting my money and was unaware the he was about to do that. OMG! All this while the both of us were actually flirting with each other, maybe, I don’t know because the way he touched my hair that then felt weird. He keeps ajak me makan with him and Hafizsan but I keep saying kalau belanja saya, boleh la… OMG! He makes me felt excited. He gives me the rush. But then, this is only the first time we work together. I can’t be sure of it until I work with him again, I don’t know when though…
My day today was awkwardly blissfully wonderful today. My morning was a bit bad because I got food poisoning from last night supper outside with my sister, her fiancé and his cousin. I showered around noon, went to Maybank around 3pm to cancel my ASB loan, and hang around at my store Starbucks Pavilion until 6pm (the rest of what I’m doing there no need to be so detail) while waiting to go work in Starbucks Time Square 1 at 7pm. It rained on my way going to Time Square but I managed to reached there 30 minutes earlier so I can dry myself up. They loan me, Hafizsan and one of our partner from pavilion that I haven’t met yet named Hanif for 4 hours due to having the store’s partner meeting with their district manager Ferry.
So, I’m the first one to arrive. At first the partners here thought I was a customer, and they weren’t very friendly, so I became quiet while working and opening my fund. Then, came in Hafizsan, later after that Hanif walks in. The three of us were left on the floor while the Time Squares’ partners went for their meeting. It was quite busy but the three of us manage to handle the floor smoothly. No pending at all, and at the same time we really have fun. Most of the time, these two boys have fun teasing me. As time goes by, me and Hanif gets to know each other. This boy is the most daring and mischief boy that I have ever met. He knows from where or from whom that I like to bite people, and really was asking for it. He keeps bragging about it for 2 hours plus, teasing… He really plays with me until I can’t even concentrate with the customers, sometimes teasing on how I talked to them. He is so mischief, like a little kid. When I give him that signature look that I always did with my partners in Kuching and with Khairul (my ex-store manager in Kuching Starbucks, The Spring), you want to know what he did? He looked back with the mischief look on his face like he really does want it. I felt my heart beats really fast and my blood rushing through my blood vessel like a train. There is something about him that I x know how to explain what I felt… perhaps blushing because I keep end up giggling and felt my face turn red, perhaps excited, challenged… perhaps. The worst part, I felt a bit naughty with him. He is totally different from Addie; in a way of being mischief. With Addie, it’s like fooling around, like sibling or close friend bickering with each other with no reason at all but at the same time no hard feelings, but with Hanif, there’s a sudden unsure sparks.
It’s been more than 2 hours; one of the Starbucks Time Squares’ partners, James the name who is a sweet hopeless romantic Malaysian Portuguese came in and helps the busy floor, so both I and James taking order at the same time being the food partner, while Hanif and Hafizsan making the drinks and expedite. After a while, I went to the expediter there, and initiate conversation of course, Hanif was beside me, and imitate what I had just said to the customer, and give his mischief smile. I turned and without any thought at all, I bite him on his left shoulder when I push him inside a bit at the verismo where the customers can’t see us. He was too shocked that he gulped when he wanted to scream in pain…wahahahahaha… He said it was so painful to Hafizsan and James and Hafizsan laugh and told him so because he keeps giving Hanif a warning that I might keluarkan my taring. Now, he became the second person in Starbucks Pavilion that caught my bite. It wasn’t that bad, just red with my teeth mark, unlike Addie’s. I bit Addie until his skin nearly tore; it was blue and bleeds a bit. His hand felt numb and still teasing everytime when he is near to me. He keeps looking at me and sometimes waiting for me to look back at him.
When the meeting was over and the rightful partners had finished their breaks, it was 20 minutes to 11pm, where the three of us were suppose to finish work. So, the two of them took their 10 minutes breaks, while I was tilling out. The male partners where disappointed because only James got the time to get to know me. I giggled when they said that because it is kind of nice being the center of attention. While I was tilling out, both of them went out for a smoke. When they came back, he acted naughty again. Hafizsan then all the sudden acted as if he kecil hati and said because of Hanif, I threw him out from my heart… I laugh so loud about the rest of what he was saying… he was pretending to be sad. We talked, goofing around while I was counting my money. Then both of them clocked out and didn’t wait for me. On their way out from the backroom, Hanif quickly pulled softly a bit part of my fringe. I startled because I was concentrating counting my money and was unaware the he was about to do that. OMG! All this while the both of us were actually flirting with each other, maybe, I don’t know because the way he touched my hair that then felt weird. He keeps ajak me makan with him and Hafizsan but I keep saying kalau belanja saya, boleh la… OMG! He makes me felt excited. He gives me the rush. But then, this is only the first time we work together. I can’t be sure of it until I work with him again, I don’t know when though…
Someone looks like someone…
OMG!OMG!OMG!... This can’t be happening. All this time, now I had just realized that he looks like someone. This guy appeals so much like him. Maybe I’m over exaggerating but when I looked at him, closely, from time to time, he does look like him (except that this guy is much younger than him and a bit chubbier than him).
Someone used to say that if you really miss that person, longing for him, sometimes you tend to see him in or on someone else. Perhaps it is true, perhaps it is not true. Last night, I accidentally stared at him for quite long, until I didn’t realize that he stared back. He was sitting on the floor at the back room where I was closing my b.o.h, I looked at him counting his money. He sighed at that showing that his tired and look up toward me. Right there then I realized that his face is similar with that someone. My heart skipped a bit, both of us just looked at each other without saying anything, until Addie came in.
All the sudden I realize everything from the first day we work together and how he appeals himself toward me. Their characters are not that similar but the way he talk to me, treat me… From my eyes, he is a gentle person, soft spoken, always smile and cheery, and not snobbish, unlike most guys here always showing off. Physically, the way he stares and the way he smiles at me is just like him. Today I’m hanging out here at my store and I didn’t realize he’s working today as a middle shift partner. He ask me with his soft gentle tone am I working or not today, I said not here, but working later at Starbucks Times Square. Then he ask why am I here then? I just smiled and he just stand there for quite a while with the bussing tub on his hand, and off went sliding when Dee startled him screaming what is he doing just standing at the door there. Both of us giggled and that’s the end of our conversation. He went for his break just now; he was standing at the expediter waiting for his empbev. I can’t believe that I actually observed him from top to bottom. I did that once or twice before, but just now I really really observed him. From behind, he does have that person’s figure; his broad shoulder, his back… and his ass. I know this is total indirect harassment but he looks neat, just like him. That pants does look nice on him.
No wonder I said that he is more cute than Addie that night when Addie wants me to compare between all the guys (long different story, different chapter), because he looks like him. He has this innocent pure face, just like him.
Even so, for sure he has someone special in his heart; I respect that if he does have one. Harmless to say, I like being around him, he makes me smile, feel warm and fuzzy inside me. I won’t say anything or ask if he does have one because I don’t want us to feel awkward towards each other.
I like having them as friends. They never make my day dull, even the slightest. Thank you Shahril, Addie, Izwan, Hafizsan, and Alif. You guys are great.
Someone used to say that if you really miss that person, longing for him, sometimes you tend to see him in or on someone else. Perhaps it is true, perhaps it is not true. Last night, I accidentally stared at him for quite long, until I didn’t realize that he stared back. He was sitting on the floor at the back room where I was closing my b.o.h, I looked at him counting his money. He sighed at that showing that his tired and look up toward me. Right there then I realized that his face is similar with that someone. My heart skipped a bit, both of us just looked at each other without saying anything, until Addie came in.
All the sudden I realize everything from the first day we work together and how he appeals himself toward me. Their characters are not that similar but the way he talk to me, treat me… From my eyes, he is a gentle person, soft spoken, always smile and cheery, and not snobbish, unlike most guys here always showing off. Physically, the way he stares and the way he smiles at me is just like him. Today I’m hanging out here at my store and I didn’t realize he’s working today as a middle shift partner. He ask me with his soft gentle tone am I working or not today, I said not here, but working later at Starbucks Times Square. Then he ask why am I here then? I just smiled and he just stand there for quite a while with the bussing tub on his hand, and off went sliding when Dee startled him screaming what is he doing just standing at the door there. Both of us giggled and that’s the end of our conversation. He went for his break just now; he was standing at the expediter waiting for his empbev. I can’t believe that I actually observed him from top to bottom. I did that once or twice before, but just now I really really observed him. From behind, he does have that person’s figure; his broad shoulder, his back… and his ass. I know this is total indirect harassment but he looks neat, just like him. That pants does look nice on him.
No wonder I said that he is more cute than Addie that night when Addie wants me to compare between all the guys (long different story, different chapter), because he looks like him. He has this innocent pure face, just like him.
Even so, for sure he has someone special in his heart; I respect that if he does have one. Harmless to say, I like being around him, he makes me smile, feel warm and fuzzy inside me. I won’t say anything or ask if he does have one because I don’t want us to feel awkward towards each other.
I like having them as friends. They never make my day dull, even the slightest. Thank you Shahril, Addie, Izwan, Hafizsan, and Alif. You guys are great.
Don't hope for something that you know its impossible for both of you
I wrote something to that person of what I really felt for this two month us being so far apart, I’m sorry if my words were harsh, illogical, etc… The reason it came out of my mind is when I bickered with one of the partner in Starbucks Pavilion because of something impossible. He really likes and crazy about Carol ever since he laid eyes on her when she had her ss training class in KL. He keeps asking me about her, is there a possibility that she and Wan will break up, etc… until I really can’t stand it. Carol is my bestfriend and I know what kind of girl she is and she would never want a distance relationship. Thus, she really love Wan and it makes me glad to see her happy.
I just don’t understand why most people demand for something that they know themselves that it is impossible to achieve. Take this guy for example; he is searching for love and a girlfriend. He knows that he will never have the chance with Carol, unless he is there in Kuching or Carol is in KL for permanently and she is single. Yet, he still hopes for it, and brags about it, dreams about her, etc. If he really wants her, go ahead. Take the risk, don’t ask to do things that I will not do toward my best friend by being cupid for him and her. Even if so, what if you really miss that person, longing for that person but you know there’s nothing you or that person do other than just saying it. What for wanting to have that relationship with him or her? Don’t you feel like you are hurting yourself and hurting that person for not being able to be with each other, to feel love, to be touched, and express your love toward each other. That’s what I have been feeling. It hurts every time. Why can’t he just search for a girlfriend here in KL where he can go out on a date with her, luvvy dubby with her, etc… rather than chasing after Carol. There are tons of gorgeous girls here that are better than her. Let Carol be with the person she love where she can see him, love him, spend time with him.
For me, I know that I should do the same, but I know my situation which is hard for me to explain, even it’s hard for me to explain it to that person, but I’d tried my best. I don’t know how he really felt because he only said that he was touched by my letter to him.
Everyone, if you really do love that someone, love him and her for who he or she is, and accept what they can or can’t afford to give you because you know it’s impossible for them to give something that you want, but yet you still want it and end up hurting yourselves and that person also. It’s not wrong to wish for something and want something that you have wanted to have to be done for a long time, but forgiving the person you really loved who is not able to grant your wish is the gift there is. Because by doing that, at least you can still be and have that person that you love for eternity.
I just don’t understand why most people demand for something that they know themselves that it is impossible to achieve. Take this guy for example; he is searching for love and a girlfriend. He knows that he will never have the chance with Carol, unless he is there in Kuching or Carol is in KL for permanently and she is single. Yet, he still hopes for it, and brags about it, dreams about her, etc. If he really wants her, go ahead. Take the risk, don’t ask to do things that I will not do toward my best friend by being cupid for him and her. Even if so, what if you really miss that person, longing for that person but you know there’s nothing you or that person do other than just saying it. What for wanting to have that relationship with him or her? Don’t you feel like you are hurting yourself and hurting that person for not being able to be with each other, to feel love, to be touched, and express your love toward each other. That’s what I have been feeling. It hurts every time. Why can’t he just search for a girlfriend here in KL where he can go out on a date with her, luvvy dubby with her, etc… rather than chasing after Carol. There are tons of gorgeous girls here that are better than her. Let Carol be with the person she love where she can see him, love him, spend time with him.
For me, I know that I should do the same, but I know my situation which is hard for me to explain, even it’s hard for me to explain it to that person, but I’d tried my best. I don’t know how he really felt because he only said that he was touched by my letter to him.
Everyone, if you really do love that someone, love him and her for who he or she is, and accept what they can or can’t afford to give you because you know it’s impossible for them to give something that you want, but yet you still want it and end up hurting yourselves and that person also. It’s not wrong to wish for something and want something that you have wanted to have to be done for a long time, but forgiving the person you really loved who is not able to grant your wish is the gift there is. Because by doing that, at least you can still be and have that person that you love for eternity.
Changes and development
I have just started to really bond with my new Starbucks partners. I’m close with all and I really do appreciate them. I can’t believe they all pampered me, treating me like a kid even though some are a year or 2 years younger than me. It’s not that I behave spoilt (manja), not like when I’m in Kuching. I’m more of a soft person with a sweet smile. Some of them said I’m very warm-hearted; my personality easily shines through me just by smiling. There is one regular customer, a Dato’(I don’t know what his name is), told me that he seldom see me not smiling, it makes him want to smile when I’m there. He always gives me a wink when I greet him.
Back to the partners, I’m close to everyone and they really are very kind to me now and treating me very dearly especially the guys. I know that this is also because I work with the guys more than the girls. The guys here, I guess they like to see me smile and cheery. Every time when I’m sitting quietly, or doing my work silently, they will always end up doing something silly just to attract my attention and make me laugh. It was never a dull moment, especially when I’m working with Addie, Shahril, Izwan, Hafizsan, Noordin, and Alif. If with the girls, there are 9 girls working here but I’m close with Sarah, Mas, Chris, Venu, and Irna. Now, I’m beginning to open up a bit with Fatihah and Dee Dee. Dee stared to know a bit of me that is just the opposite of her. What makes me ok with her is that she talks a lot and she likes to share. Fatihah and I were 1st was good, really friendly with each other, then not that close, and then ok again. The 2nd one was because of enviness. I felt guilty because in her mind, she felt like she has been replaced. She was the baby @ princess @ whatever you want to call a person who has everyone’s attention to her. When I came in after a week or two, the attention has turn towards me. It makes her jealous a bit and creates negatives attention after that that affects her performance even more because she got the level of need improvement, because of her behaviour, it became worse than need improvement. Now, just a few days ago, we were ok again and she even starts to look up at me. Others are Siti and Az. Siti only available working in morning shift. I’ve met her three times already but she never even once talked to me, in fact she looked down at me, as if I can’t handle the “busyness” of this store. She even teased sarcastically when I told some of them to help the floor because of the pending drinks and food (I was off that day and saw there’s only 3 partners in the bar including R1 and they seem like they need help). First impression is important, but for me I always told myself not to judge someone too early, give chance to know them, but this girl really judge me and I also had judge her character just based on how she carried herself up and her sarcastic words. Az is a different story. I kind of had a bad past with her and lost trust in her. So, I’m very alert and aware of my work and when I’m around her. The rest are balanced from the guys group that I’m not very close with; there’s Arie, Small who is only nice to me when there is a c.i.o girl nearby or those c.i.o are my friends. There are others male partners that I have never work with; there’s Ash, Yau Min, and Hanif. There’s still a lot more…
Lastnight I was a bit blue, they really realized it. Addie keep teasing me until I respond back, and it took a while for me to respond. I was trying to control myself, not feeling down in front of them. Izwan keep doing silly dancing just to make me smile again. They knew that my smile was not a natural smile. They even realized how I talk to customer was different. Even Shahril tried to cheer me up. He knows that I like to smile and stare at him, and he likes to do the same also, and both of us will giggle, and Addie will give that silly confused look on his face, thinking that we badmouth him or something. But lastnight I keep looking down whenever he looked at me.
I didn’t really talk to Shahril, Addie, Izwan and Alif the whole night, only talking with Sarah because she knows why I’m a bit down. I’m not noisy and lively as they knew me and they really try to cheer me up. It works but just for a while. I didn’t even hold my till, just made 5 transaction, and till out around 11pm. At first, Addie was playing tricks with me saying that I short a lot in my cash sale. We recounted three times and finally got it correct. I really screamed at him for giving me a heart attack because I really don’t have the money to pay. We quarreled like little brats, and I bit his right arm. I was so pissed of and geram… As he was putting the money in the save, Shahril came in and wanted to ask ed which food to be mark-out. He looked at me with that sweet cute expression that makes me stared back at him. We always indirectly end-up locking each other’s eyes and we smile like a goof..hahaha. He giggled when I signaled him that I wanted to strangle Addie. The way he looked at me is as if he was glad that I’m back to normal. That I was making jokes again. Addie then gave me a piece of chocolate cake to bring home. It makes me happy to hear that. As we were about half an hour to close, there’s a customer coming in, and we greet the customer as usual. I was surprised when they said I was ok again. I even greet with the same tone again. They said when I’m happy and lively, the way I say hello is like singing hello. Its like I’m singing a tune when I’m taking order, unlike few hours ago, it’s obvious that I was down. My tone in conversation with customer was flat all the way, even when calling out drinks. Most obviously, I smile without showing my teeth. I was surprised that they really know me at work, how I am with them and with customers. I realized that and really smile afterwards.
Back to the partners, I’m close to everyone and they really are very kind to me now and treating me very dearly especially the guys. I know that this is also because I work with the guys more than the girls. The guys here, I guess they like to see me smile and cheery. Every time when I’m sitting quietly, or doing my work silently, they will always end up doing something silly just to attract my attention and make me laugh. It was never a dull moment, especially when I’m working with Addie, Shahril, Izwan, Hafizsan, Noordin, and Alif. If with the girls, there are 9 girls working here but I’m close with Sarah, Mas, Chris, Venu, and Irna. Now, I’m beginning to open up a bit with Fatihah and Dee Dee. Dee stared to know a bit of me that is just the opposite of her. What makes me ok with her is that she talks a lot and she likes to share. Fatihah and I were 1st was good, really friendly with each other, then not that close, and then ok again. The 2nd one was because of enviness. I felt guilty because in her mind, she felt like she has been replaced. She was the baby @ princess @ whatever you want to call a person who has everyone’s attention to her. When I came in after a week or two, the attention has turn towards me. It makes her jealous a bit and creates negatives attention after that that affects her performance even more because she got the level of need improvement, because of her behaviour, it became worse than need improvement. Now, just a few days ago, we were ok again and she even starts to look up at me. Others are Siti and Az. Siti only available working in morning shift. I’ve met her three times already but she never even once talked to me, in fact she looked down at me, as if I can’t handle the “busyness” of this store. She even teased sarcastically when I told some of them to help the floor because of the pending drinks and food (I was off that day and saw there’s only 3 partners in the bar including R1 and they seem like they need help). First impression is important, but for me I always told myself not to judge someone too early, give chance to know them, but this girl really judge me and I also had judge her character just based on how she carried herself up and her sarcastic words. Az is a different story. I kind of had a bad past with her and lost trust in her. So, I’m very alert and aware of my work and when I’m around her. The rest are balanced from the guys group that I’m not very close with; there’s Arie, Small who is only nice to me when there is a c.i.o girl nearby or those c.i.o are my friends. There are others male partners that I have never work with; there’s Ash, Yau Min, and Hanif. There’s still a lot more…
Lastnight I was a bit blue, they really realized it. Addie keep teasing me until I respond back, and it took a while for me to respond. I was trying to control myself, not feeling down in front of them. Izwan keep doing silly dancing just to make me smile again. They knew that my smile was not a natural smile. They even realized how I talk to customer was different. Even Shahril tried to cheer me up. He knows that I like to smile and stare at him, and he likes to do the same also, and both of us will giggle, and Addie will give that silly confused look on his face, thinking that we badmouth him or something. But lastnight I keep looking down whenever he looked at me.
I didn’t really talk to Shahril, Addie, Izwan and Alif the whole night, only talking with Sarah because she knows why I’m a bit down. I’m not noisy and lively as they knew me and they really try to cheer me up. It works but just for a while. I didn’t even hold my till, just made 5 transaction, and till out around 11pm. At first, Addie was playing tricks with me saying that I short a lot in my cash sale. We recounted three times and finally got it correct. I really screamed at him for giving me a heart attack because I really don’t have the money to pay. We quarreled like little brats, and I bit his right arm. I was so pissed of and geram… As he was putting the money in the save, Shahril came in and wanted to ask ed which food to be mark-out. He looked at me with that sweet cute expression that makes me stared back at him. We always indirectly end-up locking each other’s eyes and we smile like a goof..hahaha. He giggled when I signaled him that I wanted to strangle Addie. The way he looked at me is as if he was glad that I’m back to normal. That I was making jokes again. Addie then gave me a piece of chocolate cake to bring home. It makes me happy to hear that. As we were about half an hour to close, there’s a customer coming in, and we greet the customer as usual. I was surprised when they said I was ok again. I even greet with the same tone again. They said when I’m happy and lively, the way I say hello is like singing hello. Its like I’m singing a tune when I’m taking order, unlike few hours ago, it’s obvious that I was down. My tone in conversation with customer was flat all the way, even when calling out drinks. Most obviously, I smile without showing my teeth. I was surprised that they really know me at work, how I am with them and with customers. I realized that and really smile afterwards.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I went out with him today…
There is a friend of mine that I just met around middle of this year in Kuching. I was surprised to see him here in KL. On second thought, I shouldn’t be surprise because his origin is here in KL. It’s just that out of all the people that I really miss and want to meet again, it never crossed my mind that he will be the one to see me.
We actually bumped into each other in a LRT station in Hang Tuah last week around evening. I was on my way to work, and so was he. I didn’t realized it was him, but aware that he kept looking at me and coming toward me. It felt kind of nice to see someone again, someone who you called a friend. Yadayadayada… we talked for a while and he asked me out for lunch whenever I’m free. I felt guilty for keep writing him a raincheck and finally we went for a lunch today.
To tell you the truth, this is the first time that I really went out (other than going to work that is…duuh..). We sat at medan pelita nasi kandar, ate there and talk endlessly for nearly 3 hours. He took a day off just to spend time with me; it’s kind of sweet of him. I felt guilty for telling him that I’m working today at Starbucks.
After that, he accompanied me going to my workplace. When we arrived at Starbucks Pavilion, it turns out that my shift today starts at 7pm, so damn early! What am I supposed to do while waiting. Now it’s only 4pm…
When I went out from the backroom, he was still there waiting. I told him that I still have 3 hours free, he asked for a walked inside the shopping mall. We walked for about half an hour and I asked him whether he would like if we just sit and online for a while because I’m scared that I might get tired before work starts.
We sat at the outside café in Starbucks, online and chat some more… It was nearly 7pm and I have to go in to work. Thus we said goodbye and hope to see each other again. I had fun actually. There is an ease in my heart. Perhaps because I haven’t really talked to someone for quite a while. I admit that I know that I’m very lonely here and it was a relieved to be able to talk about things again.
Thank u Isz…
We actually bumped into each other in a LRT station in Hang Tuah last week around evening. I was on my way to work, and so was he. I didn’t realized it was him, but aware that he kept looking at me and coming toward me. It felt kind of nice to see someone again, someone who you called a friend. Yadayadayada… we talked for a while and he asked me out for lunch whenever I’m free. I felt guilty for keep writing him a raincheck and finally we went for a lunch today.
To tell you the truth, this is the first time that I really went out (other than going to work that is…duuh..). We sat at medan pelita nasi kandar, ate there and talk endlessly for nearly 3 hours. He took a day off just to spend time with me; it’s kind of sweet of him. I felt guilty for telling him that I’m working today at Starbucks.
After that, he accompanied me going to my workplace. When we arrived at Starbucks Pavilion, it turns out that my shift today starts at 7pm, so damn early! What am I supposed to do while waiting. Now it’s only 4pm…
When I went out from the backroom, he was still there waiting. I told him that I still have 3 hours free, he asked for a walked inside the shopping mall. We walked for about half an hour and I asked him whether he would like if we just sit and online for a while because I’m scared that I might get tired before work starts.
We sat at the outside café in Starbucks, online and chat some more… It was nearly 7pm and I have to go in to work. Thus we said goodbye and hope to see each other again. I had fun actually. There is an ease in my heart. Perhaps because I haven’t really talked to someone for quite a while. I admit that I know that I’m very lonely here and it was a relieved to be able to talk about things again.
Thank u Isz…
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